Fed Up and Not gonna take it anymore!!!!!

Anyone else ever feel so targeted by the enemy that you can barely raise your head off your pillow in the morning before the fiery darts start coming toward your head?  Ever since we have arrived in England, the enemy has tried every tactic in his arsenal to keep my down.  I have battled more physical sickness in this 18 month period than I have my entire life.  Not to mention homesickness and other depression and emotional issues.  I am FED UP with the attacks on me!  I am FED UP with the enemies attempts to break me and make me fold into a bed of depression and anguish!  I REFUSE to live under the weight of his attack any longer!  I came across this Psalm today and wow, what a powerful testament to how I am feeling right now.  With month after month of stomach issues this really hit home.. (taken from the Message)

Psalm 13 (The Message)

Psalm 13

A David Psalm

 ^1-2 Long enough, God— you've ignored me long enough.
   I've looked at the back of your head
      long enough. Long enough
   I've carried this ton of trouble,
      lived with a stomach full of pain.
   Long enough my arrogant enemies
      have looked down their noses at me.

 ^3-4 Take a good look at me, God, my God;
      I want to look life in the eye,
   So no enemy can get the best of me
      or laugh when I fall on my face.

 ^5-6 I've thrown myself headlong into your arms—
      I'm celebrating your rescue.
   I'm singing at the top of my lungs,
      I'm so full of answered prayers.

So today, I am calling the enemy to battle! You see my Redeemer already won and I refuse to allow the enemy to make me feel defeated anymore!  I am calling out to my God, I am throwing myself headlong into his arms.  I am singing at the top of my lungs!!! I am sheltered in the wings of the Most High God, I am covered by the refuge of my Strong Tower!  I am NOT going to be pushed around anymore!  HERE I AM!!! My God may be all I have but My God is ALL I NEED!!!!!!